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Tuesday, January 3rd, 2017
10:39 pm - My thoughts on Sherlock BBC's new episode
Basically can be summed up with this: WHAT THE EVERLOVING FUCK.

That's it.

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/124376.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Monday, January 2nd, 2017
8:09 pm - Writing woes
I've been writing these past two days and it's been like pulling teeth. Shit, I didn't remember it being so damn difficult. I'm not sure all this emotional see-saw is making any sense and now I 'm not sure how to get out of it. In brief: I don't know what I'm doing anymore.

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/123906.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Tuesday, December 27th, 2016
12:44 pm - Fandom, I fucking miss you
Today I've commented on a picture on Facebook asking the artist how he felt about concrit. He has replied to me: "what concrit?" Well, WHAT CONCRIT DO YOU THINK?!

I'm just so used to fandom courtesy and people understanding automatically what I mean when I offer concrit that I'm sort of flabbergasted.

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/123764.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Friday, December 9th, 2016
9:20 pm - njkhbdf873236t9847659728y=(/T&)/&%/&$&·&·$·!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so fucking furious right now, and it's for a stupid argument through the Internet with a stupid moron I don't even know. Damn Facebook. It's official I'm fucking 5 again, I've totally regressed. I know not all men are the same, I pride myself in being aware of that fact and I hate how this is going to sound because, actually, I tend to get along with guys far, far better than with girls, BUT BY GOD, THERE ARE SO MANY MEN OUT THERE WHO ARE FUCKING MACHIST AND THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW THAT I CAN'T, I JUST CAN'T!!!!  AAAARRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/123408.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Tuesday, November 22nd, 2016
6:15 pm - PIC, PIC, PIC!!! (My i_reverse_bang 2016 entry)

So, here's this year's i_reverse_bang entry. I was lucky enough to get two stories written for my pic by two amazing authors, immoral_crow and SamanthaStephens, you can find them here and here! In spite of the sketchy style, I hope you find the pic intriguing enough to want to read them both.



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Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/123272.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Friday, November 11th, 2016
9:26 pm - Funny facts

In spite of its awful meaning, the word "bigot" sort of cracks me up because in Spanish "bigote" means "moustache".

(Also, the English word for "avocado" comes from the Spanish earlier form of "abogado", which means "lawyer". In Spanish, the name of the fruit is "aguacate", which comes from the Náhuatl word for "testicle".)


Am I doing any of the hundreds of important tasks that I have to do today before going to sleep? Nope, not really, no.



Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/122953.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Friday, September 16th, 2016
9:14 pm - Some pointless ranting, but nothing serious
I'm not a particularly normal, perfectly adapted individual. Like most people in fandom, I'm quite the introvert. I'm painfully aware of these so-called shortcomings (you could argue they are just personality traits, but as they are not exactly encouraged by our society and they make interaction especially difficult in most situations, I don't look at them in a positive light. It's part of who I am, though, so that's all right. Sort of). But I digress. What I'm trying to say is that I usually feel identified with the abnormal and socially awkward individual in a story. I'm also a very secretive person, I share what I want to share when I want to share it, and that only happens when I feel I can trust the other person to understand, not to judge and to keep my secrets. That doesn't happen very often.

That means that, when I'm reading a story and one of the characters have a psychological/social problem/disorder, even when I'm not familiar with their particular difficulties because it's a condition I know nothing about and doesn't happen to me, I feel empathy towards them. And that also means that when the other character, who is invariably a good person with good intentions and a heart of gold, happens to cure the other character's condition just with the power of their love, I call bullshit. But not because I'm against love as an universal cure (I am, but that's not what angers me here), but because there's some implied "I'm fixing you" attitude that drives me nuts. Especially if it happens just after the characters get together, or after the problem is given a name (and thus, acknwoledged) and not from the very start. Before that, everything was fine and instead of "fixing" there was just "accepting". And it angers me because those writers always side with the "fixer" and I feel hurt on behalf of the "fixed" because, suddenly, the other character becomes horribly patronizing and stops being a partner, a friend, to become a fucking savior who knows better. And I can't stand it.

And the other thing. When character A is keeping a secret and character B learns of it (because A trusted in B, because B is not stupid and figured it out, because someone else told B, I don't care), even if the secret is stupid or harmful and killing character A inside, if you fucking tell the fucking secret, character B is not going to say (after some token tantrum) "oh, you did it for me, thank you so much, I forgive you because you did it for love, let's have sex". Because it's not about the secret itself. It's about trust. And it doesn't make me angry because I think it's horribly written, or not seriously researched and/or thought out. It's not about the fic not meeting my high standards. It's about me realizing that I'm always the only one siding with character A. The writer is rooting for character B. Most readers support character B, too. And that's what makes me angry and sad. That nobody understands the importance of secrets for some people, even stupid secrets. Very few people understand weird characters. And, by extension, very few people understand me.

That's what this rant is about.

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/122844.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Wednesday, June 29th, 2016
1:52 pm - So, I'm apparently regressing to the emotional maturity of a 12yo.
Which is unfortunate, but there's not much I can do about it. The thing is that, with the crumbling of all my social networks at the same time (aah, the joys of adult life!), I've been forced to make an effort to reach out to at least achieve a minimum of interaction with other human beings. Being the socially awkward and solitary person that I am, reaching out is not something I'm used to do, so I'm not particularly good at it and I'm most especially shit at dealing with a lack of response. And, lately, I'm getting a remarkable, outstanding, deafening lack of response. And the thing is, it wears me out. A lot. So I've decided to stop trying to reach out to people who don't answer back. Believe it or not, I put a lot of effort in crafting my comments. When I read something that engages me and sparks in me the will to give my opinion, I put the utmost care in phrasing my thoughts in a certain way, because that's the way I write, that's the way I express myself. And when nobody replies to that, I feel like nobody read it or, if they did, nobody cared. So it doesn't matter. So, what for. And that makes me feel awful because, apparently, I'm 12 years old again (oh, shit, I was so happy to have left that behind...!).

That means that I'm going to stop commenting on posts of people who haven't replied to my comments the last three times I tried to reach out to them. And I'm neither happy nor proud of this regression, but I need to stop feeling bitter about this and a Disney approach to things is not really cutting it anymore.

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/122487.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Friday, May 27th, 2016
6:32 pm - Stupid reminder, because from time to time, I forget
Human beings are naturally creative. Forget this shit about "ooh, this person is so talented (unlike me)" or "this person is an artist (unlike me)". Some people have cultivated their skills. Some people have not or have cultivated another set of skills. But everybody has the spark, everybody is a genius. Don't let a ridiculous, external standard of "beauty" to hold you back if you feel like expressing yourself. I've just seen a fucking ugly cartoon and it made my day because it was made of win. Don't deny yourselves the pleasure to express yourselves and don't deny me the pleasure of seeing it.

Do shit (if you want to).

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/122352.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Sunday, May 15th, 2016
10:06 pm - Let's be mild and say I'm feeling slightly frustrated
Actually I'm in a horrible mood today for unrelated things (unrelated to what? Just unrelated, in general) and I was browsing through an artist's Tumblr and got the powerful itch to draw something myself. Fanart, because that's what I enjoy drawing the most. And then I thought that LJ is dead and realized: "what for?", or rather "for whom, if nobody is going to see it anymore?". I used to do shit just for myself, for the pleasure of doing it, but not anymore, most especially not fanshit. And now I'm in an even worse mood (because everything can always be worse, do not believe those who affirm otherwise because they don't know what the fuck they are talking about). Wonderful.

At least there's music. Oh, shit, I'm so grateful for music I can't even.

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/121884.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Thursday, April 14th, 2016
11:55 am - Prompts?
Hmm, this is sort of uncanny, but I've seen that it's always around this time of the year that I make a post asking for prompts. I know because I felt the urge today (I feel like being prompted) and I was checking my past fic entries and I saw that there was also a post asking for prompts in March 2015 and in April 2014. So here's the 2016 edition.

So... prompts?

You know my fandoms (Saiyuki, WK, Inception, LOTR elves, Saint Seiya, Eroica, Arislan...) , and now there's the recent addition of Sherlock (BBC), but I haven't written anything so far and I might not have the handle on the characters yet.

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/121755.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Tuesday, April 12th, 2016
12:02 pm - Unrelated thoughts
One of the things I love about heavy metal, is that you can still succeed being fucking ugly. Actually, chances are that I don't know what you look like until I've already fallen in love with your music and researched the hell out of you.

(Usually I do it elsewhere, but from time to time I have to sing the praises of heavy metal. It's customary and the thing to do when you're into it. Just look at all the metal songs that are about metal. It's fucking crazy the level of meta in this musical style, let me tell you.)

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/121382.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Thursday, March 10th, 2016
1:13 pm - Really quick entry of general appreciation
Fanfiction is the very best thing ever.

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/121156.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Saturday, January 30th, 2016
1:12 pm - Cool shit

Hey guys!

There's an amazing fandom challenge going on. It's pretty much freestyle with a lot of possibilities to give your creativity free reign. It's even multifandom (although most of us are into Saiyuki and WK, but that's just us). Take a look at the rules and start giving prompts and offering trades and bargaining with other people HERE.

I already have a couple of ideas for filling prompts and have some WIP that I want to finish for this event. But well, the more the merrier!

Let's resurrect LJ, dammit.

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/120906.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Tuesday, December 22nd, 2015
3:08 pm - Thoughts on writing
I'm not an outstanding writer, by all means (I've said many times that I consider myself mostly average), but I'm an excellent reader, I think, and being a bit of both (a reader and a writer), some things end up sinking in. Because there are some trite sayings that you don't really understand until you've had the time to really experience them. In my case, a long while (what can I say, I'm slow). I'm talking about the "don't tell, show" thing.

Because I'm reading a fic with the perfect amount of in-depth description of a setting, which I consider difficult to get right, so if only because of that, I respect the writer. But it's the kind of story where they insist that the main character is cool, and aloof, and calm and self-assured but in the more than 60K words that I've already left behind me, he's been nothing but a bunch of insecurities, nerves and clinginess. The fact that it's wrapped up in a haughty attitude is not helping the case because most of the time, haughty attitudes hide precisely insecurities and self-doubts in real life. So, for me, these actions and body language that I'm seeing weigh like a hundred times more than the insistence that he's normally self-confident. No, he's fucking not, I would have noticed, dammit.

So, yeah, lesson learned (finally). You can't impose your image of the character on the reader, you just have to let the character be like you envision him, which is not exactly the same thing.

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/120644.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Wednesday, November 25th, 2015
7:21 pm - Thoughts
You know when you feel like a particular thing, a particular kind of story, and you search for it desperately, you look high and low and right and left for it and end up encountering something completely different from what you wanted but that you can't help but loving all the same, maybe even all the more, because of how unexpected it was, how incidental that you ended up giving it a chance?

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/120364.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Monday, November 23rd, 2015
10:34 pm - FIC, FIC, FIC!!! (Weiß Kreuz)

Just in case anybody was wondering, I'm alive. Not especially active, but alive. More or less like this fandom.



Title: Pieces of Black (71-75)
Author: Lauand
Beta: Avierra
Rating: Depending on the piece. From G to R.
Pairing: When it applies, Crawford/Schuldig
Disclaimer: Not mine.
A/N: Thank you very much to Avierra for her big and disinterested help. I touched this last, any mistake is my own.




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Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/120183.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Sunday, October 18th, 2015
12:32 am - PIC, PIC, PIC!!! (Inception - My i_reverse_bang 2015 entry )
This week I've been artistically productive. This year I decided not to stress about a perfect picture and leave the style sketchy with a bit of shadow. Because inking consumes my soul and messy pencil lines can hide a lot of defects and also add to the expressivity/dynamism of a picture. And because I'm a lazy ass and easily blocked by frustration and I'm fed up with letting my frustration block me artistically. So, here it is!

Also, before you look at this, I have to tell you that monochromia wrote the most amazing story for this. I don't know if you would prefer to read her story before seeing the pics or not. Not that I'm terribly spoling anything, but still, if you would like to be completely surprised, the story is here! (I seriously recommend it, I loved it).


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Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/119929.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Monday, October 12th, 2015
11:56 am - Reflexions
It has recently come to my attention that, when authors claim in the summary that their story is actually good or that the characters are being themselves in it, they are not to be believed. But I still keep falling for it from time to time, dammit.

Also posted at http://lauand.dreamwidth.org/119775.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Friday, October 2nd, 2015
1:16 pm - Nine months late, but still...
Do I suck? Why, yes, I do! But I think the time has finally come to post the winners of last year's 5yo contest!!

If you don't know what I'm talking about or you need to refresh your memory about it (I certainly did), here's the post with the entries. I seriously recommend everyone to take a look because this (that) year, maybe there weren't so many entries, but they were absolutely magnificent. As always, it's been a big pain to choose, you are all too talented.

Due to the meager number of participants, I decided to include some new categories. The awards this time are:

Special Award from the Audience
Best Tolkienverse Pic
Best Other Fandoms Pic
"That's the Spirit!" Award (most truly 5yo-ish pic)
"What the Fuck is this Shit" Award (most awesomeweird idea)


Aaaaand, the winners aaaare:

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