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Saturday, July 20th, 2019
6:12 pm - So, my anxiety problems, let me show you them... (also, what I've been doing lately)

Okay, I'm still alive in spite of my own psychosomatic attempts to sabotage my own health. My stomach has been hurting since April, the doctors can't find a cause aside from my abnormal levels of stress and nervousness and my body laughs at the medicines I'm taking for both the stomach and the nerves. My capacity to work myself up, dear friends, is stronger than anything in this world. A.N.Y.T.H.I.N.G. I could power an Asian capital city with my nervous energy alone.

 

Long-ish update with picturesCollapse )

 



Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/132026.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Saturday, June 8th, 2019
1:20 am - (Partial) Success?
I just wanted to thank you all for the (nice) ass-kicking. Today I managed to take one picture. It sounds like little, but in this particular case it's a lot because I'm the kind of photographer who prepares the pictures like crazy. So first I had to print some pics I needed (I had selected them and edited them in the previous days), then I decided that maybe I should also paint some instead of using the printed photographs, so I did just that. In the end I didn't use the painted pics but the photographs, but hey, I painted something. Then I took my cameras, the bottles, the pics and my bike and went to the fucking ass of Reykjavík with everything in time for the sunset. Okay, the ass of Reykjavík is just 10km away, but that's still some distance. Then I got caked in wet sand and froze while I was taking the pictures (I don't care about literally anything else when I'm at it, if I have to get wet and roll in the sand I just do it. Then I regret it, but it's always too late). Then I got back. It's 1am now because the sunset it's pretty late this time of the year, but I'm hopeful about the pics.

To be completely honest, it's not one of the things I had to do that will feed me and keep a roof over my head, but it's still something creative (the pic is for a submission to a very cool magazine). Tomorrow I'll do something to pay the bills, really.

And that's pretty much it. Well, I also studied Icelandic in the morning. Go me!

Thanks again!



(This doesn't mean that I'm suddenly a perfect machine of production, I'm really not, but hey, it's still better than yesterday and the day before.)

Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/131660.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Wednesday, June 5th, 2019
7:52 pm - So, same old, same old, really.
I've just seen that in a previous post I wrote "conspiration" instead of "conspiracy". It sounds suspiciously like "constipation", but I swear I meant "conspiracy", really. But well, compared to the things I do to the Icelandic language when I try to communicate in it, this is truly nothing (sometimes I feel that I can't speak in any language anymore, I mangle them all, even my mother tongue. Especially my mother tongue).

I seem to be unable to get my ass into gear and start working. And, of course, I do have lots of things to do. That I'm not doing. Because I sabotage myself so that I don't do them. It's extremely tiring, this fighting myself for every single thing that has to be done. Every. Single. Thing. And I suspect it's my subconscious trying to protect me because it smells fear and interprets that fear is to be heeded, but nope, my dear subconscious, my anxiety issues are not fear, are NONSENSICAL BULLSHIT, NOTHING BAD IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME, LET ME WOOOOOOOOOOORK!!!!! Ehem. I mean. Yeah. Ehem.

And that's how I've ended up updating my DW/LJ, because there's a limit to the amount of food I can consume to avoid doing what I must and I already surpassed that limit about a half an hour ago.

Someone kick my ass, please. Tenderly but without mercy.

Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/131582.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Tuesday, February 26th, 2019
4:07 pm - Let's get shit done (again)!

Okay, guys, it is official, I'm holding another "let's get shit done" fest. Do feel free to join at  [community profile] letsgetshitdone  if you're interested! I assume you all already know what it is about, but if I'm mistaken, feel free to ask, because the more the merrier.

I'll make a post about my plans of world domination later on, probably on Thursday? Do start warming up the engines! That shit is not going to get done on its own!



Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/130920.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Monday, February 18th, 2019
10:45 pm - Sooo... wolves (pic heavy, but they are not heavy pics)

Okay, I've been drawing lately. There was a month of fury last year (May) and I decided to make a project for which I needed to learn how to draw. Because it's a project important to me and I wanted to do it right. The first image of that project features a wolf and a swan. I've yet to start on the lanscape that inevitably is going to surround them, but at the moment I'm focusing on the animals. So, yeah, that's pretty much it, I'm making studies and copying photographs at the moment. Will get to the fun stuff (sketching and drawing without a model) when I think I'm done with the studies.

Here are the pics and my thoughts about my own evolution, because sharing it to the world gives me some additional motivation in a way, and I need all I can get.

Hey, there are also some swans thrown in the mix...Collapse )


Okay, and that's pretty much it.








Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/130768.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Sunday, February 10th, 2019
7:02 pm - I actually wanted to do something productive, I swear...

...but it's a conspiration. I didn't bring my computer with me because I expected to be away for a fucking weekend (and it's going to be a month soon) (I'm in Spain at the moment, by the way), the final version (betaed by the magnificent [personal profile] avierra ) of the hooker-celeb fic, that I was intending on posting today is not on my old external hard drive and the new external hard drive where it is cannot get recognized by the ancient laptop that I am using. Also, yesterday I managed to submit some shit (a photographic project) and I don't feel like working today (I get some kind of hangover after turning in a submission. It's a stressful process for me, you see), soooooo... I've done what all the cool kids are doing, the tropes meme!

I'm sure you are dying to know my results, so here they are:


Fascinanting list of tropes that you are surely dying to knowCollapse )


I might consider writing to the developers so that I can use a similar program to make decisions in a fairly quick manner, because God knows that I need something of the like.

Also, my maternal instinct is dead. The only reason kidfics are not lower on the list is that my experience with Coffee House AUs has been truly awful and that, for some reason, selfcest squicks me pretty hard. Even my narcissism has a limit.

At some point I'll post drawings of wolves I've been doing... stay tuned!



Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/130521.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Wednesday, January 30th, 2019
3:30 pm - I FIND MYSELF AGAIN UNPREPARED FOR LIFE
Sorry for the dramatic title. I'm a dramatic person, what can I say.

The thing is that some unexpected shit happened (doesn't it always?) and I'm not sure I'm ready for the shit gotten done challenge right now. I could, though, if there was some clamor about it, so just let me know if you are DYING for it and I can manage to do it. I do have some shit that needs being done, that's for sure. Hope to be able to update you all on my life at some point. Nothing exciting going on, mind you, just to keep in touch with you in a way.

Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/130249.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Thursday, December 27th, 2018
2:05 pm - Okay, I might have bitten more than I can chew...
... not because I've bitten anything of any size, just because my jaw freezes when I'm stressed even if there's nothing in my mouth whatsoever. Maybe I'm taking the metaphore too far...

Anyway, I'm just stressed by the perspective of traveling to my home away from home (and by my old, trusted existencial crisis and the need to eat each month, but those are basal factors, they are always there) and can't deal with, well, pretty much anything at the moment (if I ever apply for a job to you and you see that I've written in my CV: 'works wonderfully under pressure', be aware that it's a big, fat lie), so I might consider moving the next challenge of "let's get shit done" to February. It's not as resolutive (as in New Year's resolutions) as January, but it might be better for my poor nerves.

So, what do you think? Because if you need the psychological push of a 'new year - new life' I kinda understand and might find the strength to make the effort, but if not, I'd rather push it one month.

Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/129971.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Monday, December 24th, 2018
7:43 pm - Happy Holidays!
Okay, my family is not exactly normal and I finished eating lunch at 6pm today. I'm not ready to think of the oncoming dinner. Omg. In any case, I wish you all a great time in whatever way you choose (or have) to spend this evening. And, well, all the others, really. But you know what I mean. Merry Wintertime, people.

Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/129743.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Friday, November 16th, 2018
1:07 pm - Things that might interest you...

On the one hand, I'm considering another round of "let's get shit done" on January, would anybody be interested?

On the other hand, for people who want to have shit done but can't wait until then, it has come to my attention via hunter_king, moderator of the comm, that there's another group of support for writers who want to write intensively in bouts of five days. Apparently you have some objective to accomplish and have daily check-ins for the duration of the round.

The name of the comm is [community profile] writingfrenzy  and you can contact [personal profile] hunter_king  for more detailed (and precise) information.

And that's all for now. I'll post a real update with real stuff about my real life at some point, or something.

Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/129385.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Sunday, September 23rd, 2018
1:32 pm - FREECTOBER!!

Okay, so, expanding on this idea of a creative challenge for October... I've just created a comm called "let's get shit done" that we can also re-use for other potential challenges in the future. 

You don't really have to join the comm if you don't want to, I (hopefully) chose the settings that allow anyone to post and comment. I just thought that it would be easier to, you know, put things in common and encourage and support each other if we are sort of together in the same place.

So, the system is pretty simple:

1 - You decide what you want to do during the month of October.

2 - You do it.

3 - You post daily updates on your progress or your lack thereof. Going off-road is allowed, if you can't stick to your own challenge you can post about some other thing that gave you a different idea or something that you found inspiring today or some other medium you decided to try half-challenge. Even if it's just to say that you didn't do anything but the challenge is still in your mind it would be great to hear from you, because if you don't abandon an idea and keep it near, chances are that something comes out of it sooner or later.

4 - It's, of course, not compulsory, but it would be awesome if people also commented on other people's posts so that we all feel that we are not alone doing our own thing, but that we are together even if it's doing our own thing... know what I mean? I just miss very much this sense of community the fandom on LJ and DW has and I'm aware that most of you feel the same way.

And that's pretty much it.

Ideas and possibilities:

I do want to write ultra-short fics, I'd say one-liners, but I suck at synthesizing, so they might end up being one-paragraphers. One per day. I don't know yet if I want them all to be Saiyuki, or WK, or a mix of all my fandoms. We'll see.

Other people can do one doodle each day.

Or to work on an old WIP so that it gets finished at the end of the month.

Or to write small meta about your favourite fandoms.

Or to assign a song or a playlist or a color palette to a character each day.

Or to post a plotbunny.

Or to compose a tune.

Or to do embroidery.

I mean, the sky is the limit, you just have to find something that you feel like doing, because sometimes you sort of want to start a project but end up thinking "what for?" and don't do it. Well, here the answer is "because we want to know about it and see it done". So go ahead.

And that's pretty much the idea.

If you (like me) need some sort of external inspiration, [personal profile] the_rck  has offered to share a list of poetry snippets that she has collected and a bingo card generator. Or we can give prompts to each other, of course. That can also be it, your challenge can be providing random words for people to use everyday. Any question you might have, feel free to post on the comm so that we can work out the anwer. Bring other people on board if you like. Feel also free to spread the word.

Ok, I think that might be it. Let me know what you think!




Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/129145.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Thursday, September 20th, 2018
3:40 pm - October?

Soooo... I was thinking of organizing some kind of challenge for October, loosely based on the Inktober and NaNoWriMo things but more relaxed and letting the participants decide what they want to do. The only request would be to report once a day, if only to say "hey, couldn't do anything but I thought about it".

So, basically, it would be some kind of creative support group with the aim of getting something done.

Anyone in?



Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/128983.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Friday, July 27th, 2018
6:49 pm - Another of my incredibly relevant updates

I just wanted to say that I'm so much into fanfiction, that when I'm driving through a shitty road (and, believe me, here we have many of those, this weather is unkind to people, but it's hell on the asphalt) I can't help thinking that it's full of plotholes. I have even stopped correcting myself when I realize what I just thought. I think I like my fanficcer version better.



Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/128653.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Wednesday, May 9th, 2018
8:21 pm - Quick update
I am not dead. I owe emails to some of you (and Christmas Cards to everyone), but life without Internet at home is hard! I'm drawing a lot these days, I'll probably make a post about it at some point (but again, no Internet, so it might take a while). I'm pretty angry and discouraged, but I'll probably explain that further when I post the drawings I'm making (they are just studies to prepare a project I'm working on).

So, yeah, that's it for now. Hope you're all moderately okay?

Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/128459.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Wednesday, April 18th, 2018
3:47 pm - My will is starting to waver...
...okay, let's say that it's mid April and I still haven't finished my Christmas cards... will you be sorely disappointed in me if I actually gave up and skipped the 2017 edition? I've been working on them, but maybe it's better if I just try to get them ready for the winter holidays of 2018?

The thing is that I hate to go back on my word, dammit, and I said that I would send them... aarrghhhh, decisions, decisions...

Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/128149.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Sunday, February 4th, 2018
6:55 pm - So, yeah, let's get some shit done

Do you remember the Saiyuki_WK_AU comm? Well, we've sort of resurrected it a little bit and also imported it to DW. And we have a new challenge! Probably just for this month. Mainly because indelicateink and I wanted to do some Xover stuff and we thought, well, why not? It's all explained in the post, really. Go and take a look if you're interested, because the more the merrier! And remember that if this is not really what you want to do BUT there's something you are dying to work on but just need a tiny, little, diminutive amount of support, I would suggest you contact indelicateink, because she has a thinging going on and might be a good idea to try some synergy so that we all can enjoy the result.



Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/127858.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Wednesday, January 10th, 2018
3:36 pm - And also
I'm wholeheartedly elated at your general enthusiasm in the face of my continued survival. I'll do my best not to disappoint you.

Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/127529.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Monday, January 8th, 2018
3:05 pm - Just so you know...
...I'm not dead.

Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/127364.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Friday, December 8th, 2017
8:43 pm - STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

I HAVE LIKE A MILLION OF IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO AND I AM MOST DEFINITELY NOT DOING THEM BECAUSE THEY ARE IMPORTANT AND THUS, I DON'T WANT TO. PLEASE, SOMEONE KICK MY FUCKING ASS INTO GEAR. LIKE, RIGHT NOW. PLEASE.





The situation is so dire that I don't even feel like making my own meme about it.





Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/127005.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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Saturday, November 4th, 2017
2:30 pm - Short and to the point
I'm craving deathfic. That bad.

Also posted at https://lauand.dreamwidth.org/126933.html, if you'd rather read it there or want to enter a discussion with comment count unavailable comments.

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